It’s a grey foggy day in Sacramento today and I am enjoying 56 oz. of fresh orange juice from Jamba Juice! I mentioned in my previous post that I bought 2 cases of oranges for juicing that have all tasted like grapefruit so far. As one could imagine, I had my heart set on orange juice!

Jamba Juice will print a little survey URL with your receipt on what seems to be every other visit. When you visit the URL and fill out the survey, you are furnished with a code…when you bring back the receipt with the code written on it, you get a free 16 oz. drink with your next purchase! That is what I did this morning. I do this a lot actually. I order a 32 oz. orange juice, and then have them make an additional 16 oz. for my “free drink!” Today the person who helped me was so generous and gave me a 24 oz. drink instead of a 16 oz.  How nice, right? Can you tell I’m excited that I got 56 oz. of FRESH OJ for $5!?!? Try this out, my friends!

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I want to chat a little bit about creation, energy, and the people that we spend time with. Have you ever had a delicious conversation with a good friend, or maybe a group of people that you’ve been close with, and you share an exciting idea that you have? What happened? Often times, even when we spend time with people that we love and that love us back, we feel that our brilliant ideas get shot down, or lose their momentum once we vocalize them with other individuals. What I encourage you to do is find a group of like-minded individuals who are either successful in the area that you want to be successful in, or they are aspiring successors just like you.

I want to share (as an example) my massage ideas and endeavours so that you see what I mean exactly.

First, my decision to abort my plans with traditional school was a private decision. I kept it private, not out of secrecy, but out of protection for my something that intuitively felt so right even though it was a leap of faith for me. What happens when we take leaps of faith and share them with “outsiders” in their new stages of development is that we open up to criticism. I like to think of this stage as the newborn stage of birthed creation. We have to protect our creation from outside elements during its’ first stages of life – this is the most vulnerable time for our creations!

Next, after starting a new project and protecting it from other’s projected fears, it is important that when we share our endeavors with others, that we share them with trusted individuals. At this point, the creation might still be a bit new, even though it’s taken off to some degree. I like to consider this stage a time of guardianship for creation. What I mean by this is allowing your creation to be shared with individuals who might be supportive of your new creation/journey. These will be the people in your life that will act as guardians for your new life – they will be invested in your best interest.

In my situation, after making my confident decision to transitioning to massage school, I told my mom. My mom is going through her own transitional stage right now. She is realizing that she does not enjoy working in an office all day. She is realizing that life is short and she wants to fulfill her purpose during this lifetime that she has been given. I knew it would be safe to share my new path with my mom since she is paving a new path for herself. I was happy to share my “newborn” with my mom. To this day – just a few months later – she has been extremely supportive and I am so grateful!

Use your intuition to identify who these guardians are in your life! They need not be blood relatives. They can be “adopted” family members – people who you welcome in to your life as spiritual family members! These will be the people that you grow with…These will be the people that will be cheering you on!

Once you have passed the newborn and guardianship phase it is safe to share your endeavors as long as you exude confidence about them!! For example, when I started massage school, I shared this with a select few individuals. When I passed that stage, I shared it with more people that I knew would be supportive of me. Time passed and I found myself at a family gathering where family was asking me how school was going. At this time I knew my new massage path was right for me, so I had no problem confidently sharing this with family who asked. My grandpa, without fail, is always the main person to track me down to get a rundown on how school is going for me – gotta love him! When I shared that I had dropped all of my traditional classes and signed up for massage school, he was disappointed and asked a lot of fear-based questions such as “How will you find clientele?”, “How will you pay rent?”, “Where will you work?” and my personal favorite: “Say you’re at a business networking event and someone asks you your profession. You say your a MASSEUSE. Imagine what they will think!” Clearly, my grandpa has the idea that the type of massage I’m pursuing is the happy-ending-love-line-ad massage. In this type of situation, there is no need to explain yourself to these types of people. Let’s acknowledge people like my grandpa in these situations and that they truly want the best for us. Leave it at that, give these types of people a hug and sincerely thank them for being concerned for you!

Once you’ve passed the stage where you can share your creations with non-guardian loved ones, you know you’re ready for your next stage of development: evolution! This stage is where you evolve your creation.  The evolution stage is continual. This is where we get excited about all of the off-shoots of our original creation. We become playful. We try on different ideas…We visualize different scenarios for the growth of our project. We network with like-minded individuals. When we network with excited like-minded individuals we stir up energy in the Universe to attract more like-minded people to us! This is an exciting place to be in life. This is where synchronicity builds speed and the Universe brings you what you need!

The evolution stage is a combination of the newborn and guardianship stage, with a touch of discernment. I advise you to use discernment in sharing your excitement with other individuals, even if they appear to be like-minded. What can happen is that people will project their fears about their own projects on to yours. It can feel like they are shooting your excitement down.

It is also important to harbor some excitement, always, and not share certain things with anyone! Yes! Anyone! When we share all of our excitement with everyone and we experience praise for it, it gives our psyche the false impression that we have already completed the vision we created. It impedes our momentum and causes us to take less action.

Lastly, have fun in the evolution stage!! Last night I was experiencing this at school. We had a “lecture” on business. It was more of an open forum where we could discuss our ideas, inspirations and fears about the next stages in our careers. I cannot even express into words the energy that filled the room last night. I felt so blessed to be able to listen to other people’s wonderful ideas. Their ideas inspired my ideas to take off and grow even bigger! What is also quite awesome is when we share ideas and find other people that want to be involved, or they can connect us with other resources to get us from point A to point B! I love it! I left class last night so excited about my life and my personal career…I was buzzing until I fell asleep!

I wish you so much success in all of your endeavors! Whether it’s in changing your diet, advancing in your fitness, starting a new career, or a new family…Go for it!!! Use this entry as a guide for protecting your visions and welcoming more vibrant and supportive people into your life!

With love,

Megan

Internet-presence has been a doozie lately.

Life is in full motion though in the best ways, I promise. I find myself in a safe living space, enjoying some tranquility outside of my regular routine of: working a full time office job during the week; a customer service job at a vegan retsturant on the weekends; and finishing up full time evening classes for massage therapy. Life is savory and sweet – loving it!

Last time I wrote, I was on the verge of something great in the realms of massage therapy! I had found a school I was interested in. I pursued that! I signed up for a Swedish Massage course. I graduate on December 8th!

Since I was last here, I also transitioned to a new living situation. My sister and brother moved out. I was living alone for a bit there, but now I have new roommates! I adopted 2 kitties! I’ll have to post pictures of them later. They are PRECIOUS and have very distinct personalities! They are the best roommates ever!

My home life is so much more stable than it has been the last 2 years. It’s never a good feeling when you’re not sure what you’ll come home to. Life is much more peaceful for me now. I’m at a place where I can create again! This means making new videos to post to my youtube channel, and creating new paintings and drawings!

There was a time where I was so engulfed in an art project that I would work on it non-stop. I would only stop to go to the bathroom, take a shower, or eat. I would stay up really late, fueled by inspiration! Those days are gone, as I don’t live at home anymore, and I do keep 2 jobs and go to school haha. But I want that madness to continue! I want to go a little insane! I want to stay up late sometimes and let myself go wild with inspiration! Sleep is definitely decadent, but so is creation. This is what I’m excited about!

I am not eating an all fruit diet right now. I’m not all “raw” either. I’m working on it though, so I’m not going to stress about it. I bought 2 cases of valencia oranges this weekend. This time of year is my favorite when it comes to CITRUS! However, these oranges were not good I bought them to juice for orange juice. They taste like grapefruits though. So sad! I find myself in this awkward time of year where I’m in between seasons for fruit when all I want are mangoes! Oh well, I’ll just hold out until the clementines and other varieties of oranges come rolling in. Then I can forage like I did last year. There are a ton of citrus trees in California – I am sooo looking forward to it!

Friday I might be taking a vacation day from my weekday job and meeting up with a fellow aspiring 80/10/10′er in Berkeley! I’m so excited. She and I have been friends for what feels like a long time. We’ve chatted on the phone, kept in touch…For most of the year she lives in Florida, but her mother lives in California. It will be a treat to meet her

xoxoxo

Megan

So much is going on in my life right now!

Each day carries with it this undeniably undefinable feeling. Days pass and it feels like something HUGE is about to happen. Which is funny because as each day passes, a lot of things are happening. However, I just know that some huge shifts are happening in the world and in my life.
Home Life

At the start of 2011, my sister and I had been living together. We had been living in a bummer apartment, so I made it my mission to find a great apartment for a new life. I found one – the apartment I’m currently in. The apartment had been great upon moving in, but something still wasn’t right. This year, especially on the home front, I’ve been really pushing to live simply. I had a huge obstacle though and she kept holding me back…my sister. My sister and I came from the same place, but we live completely different lives. So this year has been a lot of resistance at home. It has become more chaotic that I could have ever predicted.

My sister has moved out. Here I am with a huge apartment and one huge empty room that is about to be occupied this week! It’s crazy! I’ll have a new roommate this week! I don’t know what this means for me. This person moving in is positive, upbeat and bright. I don’t know her very well though.

I’ve been working on a lot of home projects. In addition to cleaning, I’ve been making stops at Ikea bi-weekly – as if I need anymore plants from there, haha (I have a rule – every time I go to Ikea I purchase a plant, or a candle, or both)! Tonight I picked up spray paint. It’s an amazing shade of green. I would describe it as chartreuse – my FAVORITE! I had initially intended to spray paint my corner table this color. However, I saw my patio chairs and couldn’t resist painting them green! These chairs  were my great grandma’s. They are really old and I’m pretty sure they are either late 1950′s or early 1960′s. They were made in Italy. They are just white simple metal chairs with a little table to accompany them. I am extremely excited to finish painting them green! They look amazing already!!! I used an entire can of paint and didn’t finish the set. I can see this easily becoming an addiction…I keep seeing things around my apartment that I want to spray paint now.

One of the chairs - Work in Progress

Health and Physical Freedom

This year has definitely been all about change and evolution.I am still tweaking my diet. It feels like this is always the case. However, I feel like I am almost *THERE*! “There” being that feeling creeping up on me that something HUGE is about to happen in my life. In the ways of diet, I feel like I am being called to my ultimate truth to be used by God for big things in the world. A couple months ago I got fed up with my health (or lack of it) and decided that if I wanted to commit to a fruitarian diet that I needed to seek help of people who were already succeeding. I contacted Freelea and Megan McDonnel. Both of these amazing women offer mentoring to individuals who want to improve their health and fitness. I ended up going with Megan because she was able to take me on as a client right away (For Freelea, I’d have to wait a couple months). so, Megan was more affordable (Yes! You do need to pay for mentoring! Every great service must be rewarded!). My month-long “Low Fat Raw Vegan” mentoring session with Megan went great. It was actually easier than I had anticipated. It was definitely a lot easier since I’d admitted to myself that I wanted help. I made it too easy for myself. Megan had great advice and guidance to offer me. However, I didn’t use her expertise as much as I should have. In one month I did succeed eating a completely low fat raw vegan diet. I lost a little bit of weight. My face brightened, my eyes brightened. My skin started to detox out a lot of the old muck inside of me (and still is). Unfortunately, I got WAY ahead of myself in my head. Not much longer after my month of mentoring had ended, I was back to adding more fat into my diet and eventually added salt into my diet, and eventually added cooked vegan foods back into my diet. THIS WAS THE WORST. Oh my gosh. After eating super clean for a month, my body was basically SCREAMING for me to stop what I was doing.

I am still figuring this one out, guys. In retrospect, I wish I’d have done a 6-month mentoring program with Megan. One month is not enough time to develop solid healthy eating behaviors. Some times I wish I could just escape to a resort and emerge back into the world as a glowing goddess emulating all that is light and fruitful in the world. Haha! Back to reality!

Present time, I am on the brink of something huge. My intention is to eat a fruitarian diet. At the moment, that is not my focus, though. My focus is on fresh juice. Last week I completed 6 days of 100% fresh fruit and veggie juices. This is exactly what I needed for such a changing time in my life. I experienced the mental clarity I was looking for. By consuming juice and not spending so much time eating, I allowed myself to have the time to take care of most of my home projects I’d wanted to get started for quite some time. The fresh juice opened my eyes and my heart in bigger ways than I could ever be grateful for. 6 days was great, but I want more. I’m not sure how long I want to juice for, but I definitely want to juice for a substantial amount of time (longer than 10 days). I feel like I am about to shed some skin – like an old shell, so to speak. Some people receive revelation through study, friendship, relationships, etc. For me, a huge source of revelation in my life has always been through food! God definitely connects to me through food. I know that something huge is coming up for me if I just follow this guidance that is surrounding me right now. It’s beautiful!!

School

The Fall semester started recently. While I’m back in the “Swing” of things in regards to my schedule, I am not back in the “Swing” of the institution. This semester I am feeling a lack of motivation. It doesn’t feel like a lack of motivation to do the work. It’s the same that it’s always been before. However now I can’t help but feel this overwhelming sense of dissatisfaction in the process. School (atleast the school I go to and the classes I am taking) feels like bull shit. It feels like I am doing busy work to achieve something that isn’t real. And in the mean time I am missing out on the life that surrounds me. I am separated from it at school. I love learning. Don’t get me wrong. But something just feels so wrong about my situation right now. I don’t see myself in my plan anymore. My plan was to go to school to be a dietitian. I still want to do that. But I still want to also become a certified massage therapist. I want to be a personal trainer. I want to start helping people – NOW!! At this rate, I will not even graduate for another 5 years. That’s not that long, but if that’s 5 more years of this intense feeling, I don’t know how well I’ll do.

I want to put school on hold and go to school to be a massage therapist. Once I become a massage therapist I won’t have to keep hours at a “job” anymore. The job thing feels all wrong too…what is a girl to do? Follow guidance, of course!!!

Travel

To all of my Thailand Travel buds – I’m so sorry for what I’m about to announce! Another intense feeling hit me recently when I began to daydream about endeavors in Thailand. I was at my week day job doing mundane office work, and began to do my routine Thailand fantasy session in my head. These fantasies would last minutes or even hours. They involved visions of me in the markets purchasing fresh exotic fruit and being immersed in incredible culture different than anything I’ve ever known. Then it hit me – that feeling. All of the sudden I had this big message come to me in a thought. It was actually more like a conversation. It went like this:

“Why are you going to Thailand?”
“To eat fresh exotic fruit, of course”

“Let me get this straight…you’re flying to another country to eat fruit…?”

“Yes…?”

“Well aren’t you priveleged.”

“Yes, I am. Yes….I AM!!!! Oh my gosh.”

This was followed by some mental silence, and then concluded with this:

“I can’t go to Thailand anymore. I don’t even want to go anymore.”

“Why not?”

“It would be empty. It would be a trip to merely escape the life I have in Sacramento. Is that what I want to do in life? Escape situations? Find paradise only to come back to a deemed non-paradise? Only to fantasize about perpetually being somewhere else?”

“I guess not. That sounds like a sad life.”

This was followed by some introspection into other travels I’ve wanted to take for years now (to Africa) that have more of a missionary purpose. So I’m putting my travels off (they were scheduled for December/January 2011/2012). At this time I want to save more money to prepare to go on a missionary trip helping with the sex trafficking of minors here in the US (in Sacramento) and then in Africa (Tanzania).

This is all for now.

Be well, be happy, be merry, be bright and above all – BE THE CHANGE!!!

<3 Megan